Ellanoir
I will never really figure it out or forgive myself. I guess this is life and being an adult, doing what we know is right for everyone else.
| Cannot rationally do this to Zuzu - she waits and waits for me to come home. How can I just give her back like this...? |
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| Dinner is being served on a silver platter. The relection of light masking the death veiled by bread. Thank you little bird the warning. |
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| Is saying goodbye to Twitter - nothing left her for me. |
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| I really need a day off from life - who wants to go on vacation with me? |
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| I use the bathroom as a source of escape sometimes. Too bad there are so many women in this building - no where is safe to break down. |
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| I keep hearing my name called in the hallway. It's a phontom's voice. No one hear knows my chosen name, and I don't know anyone with my name |
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| I want someone to pick me and tell me it's ok to just fall apart and be scared. Why can't I have that? Where did it go? Where did you go? |
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| Panicked by the coming days. I'm not strong enough to do this. I've done it all in the past, but I was just a kid then. I didn't know better |
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| I can't begin to explain my rational right now. I know is that the last 4 years have got to be destroyed. I have to kill them emotionally. |
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| Crap - cafateria closed. Guess I'm eating outta the vending machine. |
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| I'm going to go postal om this printer... I swear I've walked a fucking mile back and forth trying to get the damn to print. |
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| Rocking out to music in the office would be so much better with an awesome sound system - guess I'll have to settle for the headphones. |
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| Remembering to pee before 3 hour meetings is a good thing. |
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| The faint hint of cigarettes makes me think of a broken promise. Does he even remember telling me he'd never smoke again? He must not care. |
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| Of all the days my sister and ron have to show up it's the one day I'm trying to catch up on sleep. She needs to leave already. |
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| Being stuck at work on a Friday night is such a DRAG - I guess it's even more of a drag that I've got no way to get out and do anything!! |
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| Oh the joys of sleep deprivation. My dad warned me to try and get some sleep last night, but I didn't listen. 4 hours is just not enough. |
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| Everyday I experience a new sense of loss. Today I'm realizing how much I loved listening to music and being able to dance without fear. |
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| OH boy! OH boy! We are getting broadband at my parents house!! EEEE! I will no longer be isolated from the rest of the wold while at home! |
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